Travel Is My Passion

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone.

Tade benda yang senang. OKAY. FINE! Tau tak semua benda yang belajar tahun ni semua susah susah belaka. Aku tak tipu weyh. Stress weyh. Aku rasa macam nak lari dari sini pastu pergi travel sejauh yang mampu. Tenangkan diri, cari ilham cari inspirasi. Kenapa aku suka tempat? Sebab tempat Allah sediakan kat kita untuk menerima sesiapa sahaja yang mengunjungnya. Pernah ke kau dengar orang cakap, "Bencinya kat tempat tu?" Penah ke orang travel cakap macam tu? Takkan. Sebab sesiapa yang suka travel ni hatinya dah terdidik untuk menerima segalanya dengan reda dan terbuka. Senang cite terima seadanya apa adanya tempat tu. Aku suka tempat sebab tempat tak pernah reject kehadiran aku. That's why I love travelling. Tapi apakan daya, kena guna duit sendiri. Hmm. Sigh. Elaun pun tak masuk lagi. Sigh lagi. :/ Sebenarnya aku tak tau nak taip apa lagi. Ketandusan idea. Lol.

Seminit keudian,

Lima belas minit kemudian,

Setengah jam kemudian.

Ha! I got it. Pernah tengok video epic by Alex Chacon? Hahahaa. Seriously, aku terinspirated tengok video tu. Kalau nak tengok search je 360 Degree Epic Selfies. Aku jeles dengan go pro hero dia. 

So, aku rasa sekarang aku tak diperlukan. Better I find some places in a map, rather than I beg someone to put me in a place of their hearts. Places and journey thought me to be more stronger and tougher life outside there. Sometimes, I want to travel far far away, where no one couldnt find me. Bcs if me here, who's care, better I find new places, new people. No one knows me. I fed up with my own life. Im a loser. I dont always get what I want. Esp, in satisfying him. I dont know, its is so hard to get me into him, and make me and him happy. Why must this too rough way, You gave me in making him stay, why not like other people who get what they want, what they need. They don even felt this rough phase. Why me, Im not that strong enough to face it. Oh Allah, I hope You understands me well. I want the best ever relationship before I get married. I want to feel the sweetness in being a teenager. :(

note : Oh Allah, Im sorry for ranting this and that, but im just an ordianary girl. I know you understand me and You know what I want. 

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I won't hesitate, no more. 

Lately, aku selalu terover dengan apa yang aku buat. Tapi nak buat macam mana sebab tu memang aku. Memang panghai aku. Takkan aku nak hipokrit pulak. Nanti semua orang benci. Hmm, sorry sangat sebab aku act macam tu. Sorry sangat. Aku sedar Im nobody but youre somebody to me. Aku pun tak tau la cemana aku tak bole elak dari terover eksaited tu kadang-kadang. Hmm aku paham kau tengah marah aku sekarang. Kau rasa rimas dengan aku. Tapi aku macam tak boleh kalau tak baik dengan kau. Hmm. Jangan la macam ni. Aku suka cerita kat kau. Hmm, aku eksaited sangat bila dapat cite kat kau. Hmm. Mesti kau rimas dan bosan dengan aku. Hmm, aku tak tahu nak buat apa lagi dah. Aku sekarang berdiam diri dan sedih jela. Aku mampu mengalah je. Aku paham. Aku nothing. Aku takde yang perempuan lain ada. Allahhu. Aku minta maaf sangat-sangat. 

we crave feelings we've never felt and bodies we've never touched and love we've never had and that's why life can be so damn depressing.

standard hidup aku kalau aku bahagia sikit mesti endup macam ni, ni ke memang aku patut rasa.when im happy with you To be at this phase is not easy. Im not that type of that girl act. when im with you I can be this brave and falling for you was something I never planned. :( Ni memang standard piawaian yang aku kena alami ke? Sedihnya hidup aku...

CRUSH --> FRIENDZONED --> BAE --> MAHOMIES
The phase that I had to face to make you stay. Please stay, I really hope and hope u undrstand why and why. :( Never let you go. Please stayyyyy........................  T.T

note : Once i have made a decision, it wont be the same as the first time im falling in him. No matter how bad he is.