End Of Sem1

Assalamualaikum. Hi blog. Lama tak bersua. Berhabuk giler blog aku weyh. Uhukuhukkkk. *batuk.

Macam-macam jadi tau sejak few months ni. Hmm. Dengan pspm (budak matrik je tau). Ley, Stress weyh. Ni kan hmm. Hancus weyh. Kimia, Fizik, Maths and Scomp aku juga. Haa, ramai yang kata senang, tapi aku rasa susah. Maksudnya aku tak bole buat la weyhh. Hmmm. Rasa nak bunuh diri. Kimia 7 chaps, Fizik 15 chaps, Maths 10 chaps and Scomp 4 chaps. Aku ni berserah je weyh. Tawakal dan reda jela bak kata dia. Bagi mereka mereka yang pandai pergila masuk asasi atau kata lain foundation takpun dip la sebab kalau exam kau tak sepayah kat matriks. Bukan aku nak kata aku pandai tapi kalau kau nak hidup tenang tapi nak belajar relaks relaks masuk la asasi sebab exam dia u tu yang buat. Kalau matriks setara seantero Malaysia. So, masa spm buat la betul-betul nanti dapat result okay pergila masuk foundation. Jangan jadi macam aku. T.T. Tapi tapi doakan la sem ni aku skor sikit kat Fizik dengan Scomp tu. Hmm.

Ni haritu punya mid term UPS result aku. Aku pun tak sangka aku bole lulus.

Maths : A-
Kimia : C+
Fizik : A
Scomp : A

Hmm. apa aku nak kata sekarang, aku tengah cuti sem (walaupun hanya 2 minggu) aku manfaatkan sebaiknya. Hahahaa. Aku nak struggle habis untuk sem 2. Aku nak pilih u yang aku suka (dekat dengan rumah senang balik) Aku tak mau kena hantar jauh jauh. Walau pada dasarnya, kaki aku kaki backpacker kental hati sado. U pilihan gua ialah UTM, UTHM dan UTEM. Yeahh. Amin hopefully aku dapat one of them. Bak kata kawan aku universiti idaman. LOL sangat. Aku tak macam orang lain u idaman obersi harvard oxford pe semua. Aku u idaman u yg dekat dengan rumah. Aku tak suka study jejauh tapi aku suka travel. Study dengan travel sesuatu yang berbeza okay? Hmmm. travel just fikir untuk survive tapi study dahla kena survive pastu kena stress stress jadah haram belajar tu. Maigod. Pecah kepala hotak aku. Aku memilih untuk travel je ke obersi. Aku sanggup kumpul duit untuk benda yang aku suka.

Yeay. I admit I hate everything here except friends.

short getaway

Iftar Kelas

Malam Apreasiasi 

Dakwah

Bye Farizal (kemeja putih).

S21P5 (2014/2015)

To be continued.

Kiciwa

Assalamualaikum, Hi uolllsss

Harini iolls nak share something apa yang dah lama terbuku dalam jiwa. Hahaa, First and foremost, Selamat Hari Raya Haji, untuk semua. 

Entri kali ni bukan nak mention sape-sape, tapi ni random ja. Pernah tak rasa kiciwa gila sampai tahap rasa macam nak bunuh orang. Melampau la sampai nak bunuh orang takde la sampai tahap tu. Tipu je. 

Aku kecewa jugak la dengan life ni, sampai satu tahap, Ill blame all this why this would happen in ma life, why not others feel the same. Tula yang aku rasa, sampai tahap macam tu. Aku tahu berdosa, but aku tak sempurna, mesti sikit pun aku kan mempersoalkannya, mesti sikit pun takkan tak terdetik dalam diri tu mengeluh. Tak boleh nak kata apa, sebab kat dunia ni pun, ada satu teori yang semua manusia suka, iaitu manusia sukakan yang cantik. Yang tak cantik " Tolong, tepi sikit." Aku terfikir why aku tak cantik. Kalau aku cantik, semua orang suka aku, biar aku buat balik apa yang diorang buat kat aku. Buat apa? Reject la, reject dari segala benda. Tak kisah la pasal cinta ke, jawatan ke even kawan pun, apa apa la, semua pandang rupa dulu. Nak kawan pun tanya "kenapa kau nak kawan dengan aku, lain sebabnya? " aku sedar doe, aku tak lawa. Sedar sangat. Aku rasa macam masa tu aku nak jalan sambil tunduk bawah, bawah tanah terus. Sakit hati kot. Kawan dgn doesnt mean aku suka kau. Sebab kau same dgn dia je. Bangang.

Aku rasa macam nak pergi jauh dari sini, pergi kat mana aku suka takde sape pun tau. bila aku balik maknanya aku dah sedia nak hadapi balik sakit hati ni. Susah hidup tak cantik, selalu direject. Suka someone tu anugerah Allah. Tapi sampai tahap mana kah kena simpan dalam hati weyh, kadang-kadang terlepas jugaklah. Tak berani, takut. simpan dalam doa. Kalau la dia tahu, hari-hari aku mintak kat Allah jaga dia. Rahmati dia.

Sewaktu cinta ditolak, MENTAH-MENTAH:

Allahu hanya Allah tahu betapa sedihnya aku. Mestilah aku manusia biasa konfem la aku nangis, pastu bila aku dah okay barulah aku boleh pasrah, sepasrahnya. Aku bukan nak jadi manusia tak bersyukur tapi aku mesti akan mengeluh panjang. Allah maafkan aku. Tuhan, berikanlah apa yang aku mahukan. Bila dah direject, aku jadi lifeless tahap kuasa infiniti. Aku dah kunci rapat rapat rasa itu, kuburkan dah jauh-jauh perasaan tu aku buang kat lautan paling gelap dan sunyi kat Lautan Hindi, Hilang terus dari radar bersama MH370 jauh dari sudut hati. Itu yang kau nak kan? Its okay. To him, you will never get a treat from other girl like I did to you. Cause Allah is the one who entitled to do what He does. The Just, The Justice, The equitable. Kifarah What you give you'll get back. either it is in a good way or vice versa. What goes around comes around. One day, you know what hurts is. It might take you days, weeks, months or maybe years to make you realize but I believe it will eventually come. I have to just sit back and relax, let Allah repay all that if you are beruntung, Allah will let you see how He do.

Aku harus yakin dengan Allah. Allah tahu apa yang terbaik. Mungkin lebih lagi. Bila harini Allah belum temukan lagi, Mungkin bila bila masa dia akan bagi. Allah aku mahukan kebahagiaan tu.

note : "Walaupun cinta direject, terima kasih Allah sebab dah bagi rasa fitrah ni dan selamatkan aku dari segala angan-angan ku."

Travel Is My Passion

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone.

Tade benda yang senang. OKAY. FINE! Tau tak semua benda yang belajar tahun ni semua susah susah belaka. Aku tak tipu weyh. Stress weyh. Aku rasa macam nak lari dari sini pastu pergi travel sejauh yang mampu. Tenangkan diri, cari ilham cari inspirasi. Kenapa aku suka tempat? Sebab tempat Allah sediakan kat kita untuk menerima sesiapa sahaja yang mengunjungnya. Pernah ke kau dengar orang cakap, "Bencinya kat tempat tu?" Penah ke orang travel cakap macam tu? Takkan. Sebab sesiapa yang suka travel ni hatinya dah terdidik untuk menerima segalanya dengan reda dan terbuka. Senang cite terima seadanya apa adanya tempat tu. Aku suka tempat sebab tempat tak pernah reject kehadiran aku. That's why I love travelling. Tapi apakan daya, kena guna duit sendiri. Hmm. Sigh. Elaun pun tak masuk lagi. Sigh lagi. :/ Sebenarnya aku tak tau nak taip apa lagi. Ketandusan idea. Lol.

Seminit keudian,

Lima belas minit kemudian,

Setengah jam kemudian.

Ha! I got it. Pernah tengok video epic by Alex Chacon? Hahahaa. Seriously, aku terinspirated tengok video tu. Kalau nak tengok search je 360 Degree Epic Selfies. Aku jeles dengan go pro hero dia. 

So, aku rasa sekarang aku tak diperlukan. Better I find some places in a map, rather than I beg someone to put me in a place of their hearts. Places and journey thought me to be more stronger and tougher life outside there. Sometimes, I want to travel far far away, where no one couldnt find me. Bcs if me here, who's care, better I find new places, new people. No one knows me. I fed up with my own life. Im a loser. I dont always get what I want. Esp, in satisfying him. I dont know, its is so hard to get me into him, and make me and him happy. Why must this too rough way, You gave me in making him stay, why not like other people who get what they want, what they need. They don even felt this rough phase. Why me, Im not that strong enough to face it. Oh Allah, I hope You understands me well. I want the best ever relationship before I get married. I want to feel the sweetness in being a teenager. :(

note : Oh Allah, Im sorry for ranting this and that, but im just an ordianary girl. I know you understand me and You know what I want. 

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I won't hesitate, no more. 

Lately, aku selalu terover dengan apa yang aku buat. Tapi nak buat macam mana sebab tu memang aku. Memang panghai aku. Takkan aku nak hipokrit pulak. Nanti semua orang benci. Hmm, sorry sangat sebab aku act macam tu. Sorry sangat. Aku sedar Im nobody but youre somebody to me. Aku pun tak tau la cemana aku tak bole elak dari terover eksaited tu kadang-kadang. Hmm aku paham kau tengah marah aku sekarang. Kau rasa rimas dengan aku. Tapi aku macam tak boleh kalau tak baik dengan kau. Hmm. Jangan la macam ni. Aku suka cerita kat kau. Hmm, aku eksaited sangat bila dapat cite kat kau. Hmm. Mesti kau rimas dan bosan dengan aku. Hmm, aku tak tahu nak buat apa lagi dah. Aku sekarang berdiam diri dan sedih jela. Aku mampu mengalah je. Aku paham. Aku nothing. Aku takde yang perempuan lain ada. Allahhu. Aku minta maaf sangat-sangat. 

we crave feelings we've never felt and bodies we've never touched and love we've never had and that's why life can be so damn depressing.

standard hidup aku kalau aku bahagia sikit mesti endup macam ni, ni ke memang aku patut rasa.when im happy with you To be at this phase is not easy. Im not that type of that girl act. when im with you I can be this brave and falling for you was something I never planned. :( Ni memang standard piawaian yang aku kena alami ke? Sedihnya hidup aku...

CRUSH --> FRIENDZONED --> BAE --> MAHOMIES
The phase that I had to face to make you stay. Please stay, I really hope and hope u undrstand why and why. :( Never let you go. Please stayyyyy........................  T.T

note : Once i have made a decision, it wont be the same as the first time im falling in him. No matter how bad he is. 

Cause selfie with you is one of my wishlist.

Assalamualaikum and hi!...

From the title of this entry, you already know what's the main point is. Heheheee.

I donno y, i feel glad for a few weeks, my life becomes better. Ha. Even there are piles of assignments have to submit. Hahaaa. Last night, I met him. He's so cute, no? Hahaa, First like, I felt akward. Padahal, masa oncall tak cukup-cukup nak cakap. Hahahaaa. Aww, so cute, how late was him last night meyh, and he didnt have credit, lol. whatssapp only, what if i not opened my whatssapp, how can we bump to each other. Luckily I opened my whatssapp. haihh. I just stood alone and read some magazines in Popular. Hahaa, luckily you found me, cause i stared at you then you saw me. Hahaa, Pretending I was not see you was a weird thing I ever did. Hhaahaaa. When I started to blushing and I walked fast. The most cute thinggy was when we took selfie at IG, Mueheheee. Rasa nak bluetooth je gambar tu ke hp aku tauuu. Hahahaha, comel sangat.  Heheee. Spend an hour with you, played the games at arcade. At last, lepak in front of KM and we shared the stories. I really hope we can meet again after this. I want to shoot at photobox. Lol. But I dunno, where it is actually. 

SAMA TINGGI KE MACAM MANA NI?

To that guy, don be " kejap-kejap awek kau, kejap-kejap emma maembong, last-last kau cari aku jugak ". Kau dah ada gf, why you so bother, ? And sometimes, I think, you are not really love your gf, cause if you love her, how could you feel lost, when I stopped crush on you? And I think, all your updates in Insta, are fake at all. Maybe I feel jealous with your relationship, maybe. But, I think, I don want to be with that kind of a boy. If you're a celebrity it's ok you want to be like that. Budget. nyampah.

To afiq my bae/ my smoker, I hope you're just like a green tea or maybe ice peach tea or maybe anything that relates to you which makes you happy. I hope you see my face in every passing car, in every dua, and hear my voice in your favourite songs and you realise I was one all along. 

Yang penting, aku sudah katakan sebuah perasaan yang tumbuh di hatiku, tertanam yang kumulai mungkin dari sebuah kisah persahabatan. Iya atau tidak jawapanmu, ku serahkan semua ku serahkan semua ikutla kata hatimu. Ku takkan memaksa. Namun ku sungguh sangat mencintaimu.

YOU!

Every year, my raya mood will turn to be hambar. It was like a very common day. Im sad Ramadan left us. Hmm. Im just afraid if we cant meet again next year. How it all could be. Then, next Ramadhan will full of throwbacks, either it worse or best memories. Ramadan this year was full of throwbacks. I bet next year I will miss all this. 

Im just on dilemma in making decision to stay or just move on. Long sigh. I know u lost your phone. I know u're trying very hard to not lose contact. But is it me to be the first step again? And what you do? Dump me again after that right? Sometime I feel to stay but sometime I feel Im just wasting my time. My bae, my smoker, could you stop torturing me, THE PERSON WHO LOVE/LIKE/ADORE/CRUSH ON YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. I don know what to do again. and again, you did the same mistakes. I asked you, I've waited the answers for many days and then I saw your post updated. But you don't reply my answer yet. If you are in my place what you feel? What you think? In my mind now, you're just wait someone call you, pretend don't know everything. Ea Bodohnya aku suka kau.  Maybe I don't know what really happened. I think this eid is hurt me because of you. I'm training myself to be HEARTLESS. Cant you feel the pain that u placed in my heart? Im asking youuuuu, please answer. Is it so hard. First thing I want you to know is, Iftar with u is one of my wishlist. But what your answer, many statement u gave to me. "next time jelah, masa tak mengizinkan. then u said, I said it random so u didn't notice that. What the ==" Then, I asked you what? Beraya kat mana? Takkan tu tak reti reply jugak? You make me sad this Syawal. T.T


I KNOW YOU HATE ME MUCH BECAUSE IM JUST DISTURBANCE OF YOUR LIFE, IM NOT A PRETTY GIRL, NOT A GORGEOUS PEOPLE,  IM NOBODY TO YOU, I REALIZE THAT. YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME THINK IM JUST AN UGLY GIRL WHO CHASING A PRINCE CHARMING.

"You love to hate me when I'm chasing youAnd I hate to say this but I'm stuck on loving youSo I pretend that I don't careI'll stand you up to keep you hereI'll make you hate me just enough to make you want meI'll misbehave if it turns you onNo Mr. Right if you want Mr. WrongI'll tell you liesIf you don't like the truth"

I Want It That Way

Assalamualaikum. Salam Ramadhan uolls.
I never care whether the answer is not or yes or just maybe. But you really hurt me for the 3467745677912345675979 times. I never thought this Ramadan I will know you as someone that I used to know. WHY DON'T YOU JUST APPRECIATED SOMEONE THAT REALLY LIKE YOU? I know you can list as much as you want the reason why you don't  want to appreciate someone that really accept you for who you are. But I know the primary reason why. Because I'm not pretty at all compared to other girls that chased you outside there. It's a legit reason and no one can deny it. You preferred to choose them rather than me because they are pretty, perfect, fabulous, gorgeous and awesome. I know, i'm not that type of typical girl. Sometimes I just thought why must I know you, the end will be like this, painful inside. I never think about this before. Why? Why? Allah it's so hurt. I never asked for this to happen to me. If I know this will be happened I never want to know him at all. Seriously. This is one of the toughest test of qadr. Oh Allah ease my pain and help me content with Your Qard. I have to believe the destiny that has been written for me. So just go on finding the perfect one, i hope u can meet her. The beautiful, thin, pretty, gorgeous and fabulous girl. I know you have numbers of admire to choose that's why you put on the out of list because of im not pretty as other girl. IT'S OKAY. I'M FINE WITH THAT KIND OF DISCRIMINATION.

Life.

Assalaumalaikum, and good morning everyoneee. I recently in my room at KMM. Lol, this week was so busy and everyone here said the same thing to. Lol. Many lab reports to submit next week. Every week 3 lab reports. Everyday eight hours classes. I miss MPBB week seriously. I have no choice to choose, so if I will or not, I have to stay here for another 10 months. Maybe next week I will be on different class if my request to switch module is approved.

Actually before that, I already cried all over because there's someone that broke my heart again. Y dont he just stay as a friend, y don't he try to act normally like before and the important is y don't he say sorry. Im waiting for u everyday every night. Then, u can just say, "aku taknak bagi harapan kat sapa2, pliss paham". That's mean u wanna left me like what my past A! left me right. Maybe u donno what happens to me before and how i struggled to deal with that. Its hard. A! left me without words. When im with u im just hoping after a long time i didn't fall in love after A!, I will try to fall in love again with someone that ordinary and im just close my eyes when I fall in love with you because IM IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH ALL YOUR LITTLE THINGS. You are perfect to me. I tried my best to be the one who always care about you even Im busy right here. I will add the time to accompany you. Ive done my part, y not u just accept me as who I am. Try to talk again, try to make a conversation again. Don't leave me. I can't let you go. I dont want the same thing happen again in my entire life. Please stay but Im not gonna try to start a conversation anymore and I will be left and dump in the middle of it. Enough you just say sorry, I wait for that word if you do, I will forget  everything u've done that hurt me so much. Easy right but y u're such a bodoh guy that never know the most powerful word is sorry.

note : And you know that you can take all of me. I swear I will be better than before. No I can't let you go. I hope you know you never left my head and if I ever let you down I'm sorry.

Be Heartless :(

Assalamualaikum.

Hi! Today, I have no mood.

It's okay if I had to start the conversation, but I hate of being the person who ended the conversation. Nampak macam aku yang beriya mahukan kau. Lol. At least if u want to end up the conversation jangan lah blah macam tu.  Said something, "okayla nak tidur, okayla awak saya bosan dengan awak". And paling perit bila, aku posts apa-apa and kau like. Perghh. Nampak tak kau online but kau memang saja nak tak nak reply. Last ayat aku bukan ok ok atau hmm, aku tanya kau kot, aku soal kau kot. 

You have to remember this "if I open up to you, then u're absolutely special to me".  Can I be a heartless girl? I hate this feeling, the feeling when i'm trying to forget A! and I open up to you and suddenly u also broke my heart. Dump me as what u want. Maybe you don't know how hard I am to fall in love again and to open my heart for someone else. It's take time and slowly I could forget A! when you entered my entire life. I felt glad you come, you've being so special. Tapi kau taktau semua tu. Asyik aku yang mulakan semua benda. Aku sedih. Aku perit.

I told Awin about this and awin replied. "If there's a someone make you feeling down, then, wake up because of ALLAH because He is the best Protector, He is our Creator, He is our Sustainer and the one who has Power over all.
Then, I don't know why I told A! about this. Then he replied, someday we will meet, and that time tell me everything and whatever that make you feel sad, trust me.
Fyqa send me this, one day he will regret of treating the girl who done everything and fight for him.

note : never make somebody your everything, when they're gone, you've got nothing.

Build New Friendship :)

Assalamualaikum, hi. Post yang ketiga untuk harini. Hamek kau. Lama tak mengadu nasib menaip. Hahaha.

Kita nak cakap kita seronok kerja part time haritu. Huhuhuu. Rindu sangat. Bila la dapat together-gether lagi macam 13 hari masatu. Lepak, borak makan, lipat baju, lipat seluar, layan customers yang mengada-ngada. Dah badan tu besar, nak cari seluar kat kaunter aku. Pastu bila dah takde marah-marah. Aku last-last kena maki dengan Super aku. Geram pulak kita. But, semua tu aku dapat atasi dengan ada kawan-kawan. Cewahh ayat. Haha. Even yang sebaya hanya aku berlima je yang lain semua abang long Fadhil dan akak yong. Lol. Tapi seriously, diorang sporting. Best giler. Hmmm. Bukan nak cakap kerja kat Parkson dulu tak best, best sebab dapat promoter yang sporting yang suka layan perangai aku yang gila-gila macam Ah Geok dan super yang sporting. Huhu super aku dulu suka seludup makanan pastu bagi aku suruh makan. Kawan kawan pun okay. Tapi bila kat TS ni aku rasa circle of friendship aku becomes wider la weyh. Sebab aku terpaksa kawan dengan akak and abang. Hahaha. Diorang dahla banyak ceghita. Setiap hari gossip, Kpop la. Hahaha. Lagi satu, kat TS, HR dia tak kisah, tak macam Maya, garang nak mampus. Tu je yang aku tak suka kat Parkson. Kat TS yang aku tak suka aku dapat promoter dan super yang tak okay. Huhhh. Dahla tak tolong aku, pastu bila jumpa dia marah aku dia cakap, sepanjang 13 hari awak buat apa. Aku paling tak suka orang pertikaikan apa yang aku dah buat, padahal dia takde kat situ sepanjang 12 hari. Nampak dia nak demand macam tu. Macam bangang. LOL.

Tapi friendship kiteorang semakin utuh. Hahaha. Ayat skema. Lol. Diorang semua abang2 akak2. Haha aku dengan geng aku je lapanbelas. Huhu. Aku panggil diorg pun kak. abang. Hahaha. Tapi ada sorang abang ni. Aku tak boleh nak panggil abg. Aku mesti panggil dia nama je. Hahahaaa. Kawan aku cakap aku menggatal senanya. Aku pun pelik tak bole sangat2 nak panggil abang. So kiteorang borak bahasakan diri dengan nama. Lol pelik gile tapi tula. Tak tau la kalau jumpa face to face lagi nanti. Hahaha. Mau tergelak guling- guling kat situ. Ada yang lapan belas tapi muka dah tua nampak sebaya je dgn abg2 long tu. Hahaha. Btw, aku harap kiteorang still keep in touch macam sekarang.

Tengok la, aku tetap yang paling pendek. Sedih

Geng gua. Hahaha. Awin Tasya Hao. 

Dilema. Diploma Atau Matriks

Assalamualaikum Hi semua lama tak post kan? Nah amek 2 posts terus.

ATAU

Masing-masing ada kebaikan mereka yang tersendiri. Hati aku lebih kepada diploma. Tapi ayah aku macam tak bagi. Dia asyik sebut matrik je. Aku paham dia nampak matrik lebih terjamin. Aku terpaksa akur la. Tak ikut kang jadi anak derhaka pulak. Terpaksa jaga hati ayah. Terpaksa sedapkan hati dia. Terpaksa cari reda Ayah untuk dapat reda Allah. Allahu tabahkan aku. But, aku harap masih ada selit teipi-tepi ayah ubah fikiran. Harapla. Kalau tak aku terpaksa pergi KMM. hmm. Nampak UITM Arau. Jauh sangat kan? Aku pun takut susah nak balik. Aku harap time degree, aku boleh decide sendiri untuk diri aku nak pergi Uni apa.   Kepada siapa-siapa yang dah boleh terus diploma, harap korang happy. Bestla decide sendiri untuk diri sendiri. Untang ahhh. :( Tapi aku nak cakap, sepanjang lapanbelas tahun ni aku tak pernah bantah satu benda pun yang ayah suruh buat. Even masa kena masuk Sasem. Walaupun macam-macam aku lalui, aku tabahkan je 2 tahun kat sana. Ayah cuma tahu aku ikut cakap dia. Dia tak tau aku ni rela ke tak reda ke tak. Dia tak pernah tanya. Ayah susah nak ubah fikiran dia. Dia selalu rasa dia je yang betul.


note: aku takde hak lagi untuk memilih apa-apa even benda tu untuk diri aku. Ayah selalu tak bagi aku buat apa yang aku minat. Nampak tak? Aku masih tak boleh nak decide sendiri macam kanak-kanak ribena LAPANBELAS tahun yang lain. Sigh. :/

First Time Travelling (THROWBACK) Part II

Continue Part II. Entry before Part I

Monday

went to school as usual by Angkot. but I really excited wanted to go to school cause I wanted to meet someone. Hehe. :D We had to gather at school compound to get ready for Monday assembly. Well, being an exchange student we still had to study. That's why each of us had attend the P&P in our class. In class, we started a P&P by reading Quran first. In Bandung, BI (Bahasa Indonesia) is an universal language. Sunda language also important to learn here because most of the people here are Sundanese. They also charged their phones or laptops during P&P. I felt like "wow". I really want to continue school here. During recess, I tried mee Indonesia. How cool this school is. At canteen, we could bought "maggi goreng". We could also bought from Kantin Kejururan. At, Kantin Kejujuran we had just to put the money and took the foods. There is no one there. Today all of us decided to take angkot to go home this day. Today, for dinner, my family brought me eating sate padang. I also tried fresh mango juice. the juice was really "pekat".

 

Adhika from 9A. He was 13 y/o but he already 9th Grade because he is intelligent and genius maybe.

 

Tuesday,

The following day, after had some learning in class, we had a trip to Lembang. It is where the Gunung Takuban Parahu is situated. Gunung Takuban Parahu is a dormant volcano. The name of Takuban Parahu translates roughly to "upturned boat" in Sundanese referring a local legend of Sangkuriang. Before got up to the Gunung, the bus stopped at the office that has a machine that can check the volcano's activity status. Behind the office, I could saw a tea plantation. I feel like I was at Cameron Highland even I never been there. Guilty! Serious talk, I never go to Cameron Highland. Sadlife.

 

Then, the bus stopped again at the minivan station to continue went up Gunung. We had to pay for the entrance but I think our partners had support us. Ngehngeh. :D As we arrived, there was about cloudy. We could feel the cool weather here. Sulfur gas everywhere and we could smell it. It was an awe-inspiring sight of emanating sulfur fumes. 

 

Teacher gave us chances to do what we want. We decided to walk circle around the crater. When we walked, I just saw only four of us. Iman, Ali, Fadhli and I. Where the others?  We just walked without worrying cause had Ali and Fadhli, SMPN2 students. Suddenly, I couldn't balance myself and felt because it was slippery. There was a nenek shouted at us in a sudden, "Siapa yang jatuh kat sini, dia akan nikah awal". We're just shocked. The trail become more steep and slippery so we decided to go back to the starting point. We're afraid. Grrr! When we safely arrived at the starting point we're at before, it was raining heavily. The temperature dropped and cool. We "fefeeling" like at Korea. Cause the fog was everywhere and when  we started to talk the like "asap" out of the mouth. The water was too cold when we wanted to take wudhu'. After that, like every other tourist attraction, the trip would not complete without passing by the rows of souvenirs shops, so we bought some souvenirs.

 

Next, we went to Sari Ater Hot Spring at the slope of Gunung Takuban Parahu. Here, we swam in warm mineral water pools, good in healing skin problems.

We left Sari Ater was about 5.30p.m. First time in my life, I performed Solat Maghrib in bus. First time I took tayamum by using "debu" in the bus. The SMPN2 students taught us about it. They said, we can do like this when we don't know where and when to stop. At last, we reached SMPN2 at eight pm. Then, ibu took us to eat nasi with bebek.

Wednesday,

Like the days before, but today, I spent a lot of time at school, because after P&P Athiya had practiced. But today, was little bit different cause I have many new friends today. Hikshiks. How I could be friends to them? Just because, I sat alone at the corridor and they came to me asked why I was alone there. I just said, "Mereka ada practice tapi, aku lagi tak tahu di mana mereka sekarang." They replied, "Tak apa, kamu masih ada kami." Then, we talked about Upin Ipin. They asked me to spell AYAM in Upin Ipin's way. They said they tried but couldn't same as Upin Ipin. From that moment they called me Upin Ipin. We laughed. I feel glad because they still remember me until now even they didn't BCCC members and didn't same Grade. I could see how close they are with their friends. I proud of them. This day I started to feel sad cause doesn't have much time to meet and spend time with them. When arrive home, I started chit chat with Athiya. Haha. I felt happy have Athiya's family.

Thursday,

This day, I didn't mind cause I already could adapt with the school. As usual, I went to 9A every morning there and I enjoyed myself watch them and their funny attitudes. Then, about recess time, I went again to 9A.  They asked me to teach them Math. Haha. Believe or not, I didnt feel guilty doing something I never do at Malaysia. I could find myself being a talkative person and didn't afraid to talk to strangers. I felt happy could see a little positive changes in myself.

 

 

Of course, I will be boring to be only studying, what's more, I supposed to experience everything, culture, food, and enjoy the beautiful scenery of the surrounding here before going back Malaysia. So, we had angklung practiced and collaborated with team from SMPN2. We played Ignorane, and Kopi Dangdut songs. I really enjoyed this activities. Then, I just sat with SMPN2 students and we talked much about ourselves.

Friday,

They held a farewell ceremony. Eh? Dunno. More to cultural exchange ceremony. This day, we had to wear our traditional costumes. Haha, as usual I only wore baju kurung. It is the simplest and easy to bring. First of all for this day was first cultural performance which represented by SMPN2 students that successfully attracted the audiences. Then, next performance was represented by STK students and we performed Endang Dance. Next, we have to play angklung with SMPN2 team. I felt so sad and didn't stop crying after all students there kept hugging one by one each of us.  After solat Jumaat, that afternoon session was filled by visiting again. We went to Pasar Baru.  We went to Pasar Baru by angkot same as when back home. When we back, there was a beggar entered the angkot, he played guitar. After first stop, he asked for money and we pretend didn't know anything. He became angry and out of the angkot. That time I felt so scared if his behaviors becomes more wild in a sudden. Alhamdullilah nothing bad happen. We safely arrived home.

 

Saturday,

Today was last day at Bandung. I woke a little bit late cause last night I spend my night with my foster family. Talked about me. Then my family sent me to Bnadara Hussain Sastranegara Airport (BDO). I felt really hard to leave all the sweet moments. I kept replaying SMASH // I Heart You and Firman // Kehilangan in the cars. See, that Kehilangan songs was already famous there about 4 years ago and now baru je famous here.    Then, our flight was about 11.00 am here. Sobs, sobs. Before enter the entrance, there was someone gave me something and he said someone gave me and he couldn't came to give to me directly.

All the people involved in this 10 days programme were willing to network an endless friendship and enhance me to be more friendly with the new people I met. I really appreciate this. Special thanks again to my foster family and friends there also all unmentioned people related to success this programme.  Deep in my heart I felt so touched. This was my first time travelling and yet I got many new things.  Deep in my heart I felt so touched. This was my first time travelling and yet I got many new things. To be honest, believe it or not my second time visiting here was not as awesome as this first time. My second time was around 2013 with my family. I will definitely be back here again for third time. Amin.  

MY FOSTER FAMILY

Yang sangat nak travel balik waktu ni,

Fatehah Jamil.