Travel Is My Passion

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone.

Tade benda yang senang. OKAY. FINE! Tau tak semua benda yang belajar tahun ni semua susah susah belaka. Aku tak tipu weyh. Stress weyh. Aku rasa macam nak lari dari sini pastu pergi travel sejauh yang mampu. Tenangkan diri, cari ilham cari inspirasi. Kenapa aku suka tempat? Sebab tempat Allah sediakan kat kita untuk menerima sesiapa sahaja yang mengunjungnya. Pernah ke kau dengar orang cakap, "Bencinya kat tempat tu?" Penah ke orang travel cakap macam tu? Takkan. Sebab sesiapa yang suka travel ni hatinya dah terdidik untuk menerima segalanya dengan reda dan terbuka. Senang cite terima seadanya apa adanya tempat tu. Aku suka tempat sebab tempat tak pernah reject kehadiran aku. That's why I love travelling. Tapi apakan daya, kena guna duit sendiri. Hmm. Sigh. Elaun pun tak masuk lagi. Sigh lagi. :/ Sebenarnya aku tak tau nak taip apa lagi. Ketandusan idea. Lol.

Seminit keudian,

Lima belas minit kemudian,

Setengah jam kemudian.

Ha! I got it. Pernah tengok video epic by Alex Chacon? Hahahaa. Seriously, aku terinspirated tengok video tu. Kalau nak tengok search je 360 Degree Epic Selfies. Aku jeles dengan go pro hero dia. 

So, aku rasa sekarang aku tak diperlukan. Better I find some places in a map, rather than I beg someone to put me in a place of their hearts. Places and journey thought me to be more stronger and tougher life outside there. Sometimes, I want to travel far far away, where no one couldnt find me. Bcs if me here, who's care, better I find new places, new people. No one knows me. I fed up with my own life. Im a loser. I dont always get what I want. Esp, in satisfying him. I dont know, its is so hard to get me into him, and make me and him happy. Why must this too rough way, You gave me in making him stay, why not like other people who get what they want, what they need. They don even felt this rough phase. Why me, Im not that strong enough to face it. Oh Allah, I hope You understands me well. I want the best ever relationship before I get married. I want to feel the sweetness in being a teenager. :(

note : Oh Allah, Im sorry for ranting this and that, but im just an ordianary girl. I know you understand me and You know what I want. 

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I won't hesitate, no more. 

Lately, aku selalu terover dengan apa yang aku buat. Tapi nak buat macam mana sebab tu memang aku. Memang panghai aku. Takkan aku nak hipokrit pulak. Nanti semua orang benci. Hmm, sorry sangat sebab aku act macam tu. Sorry sangat. Aku sedar Im nobody but youre somebody to me. Aku pun tak tau la cemana aku tak bole elak dari terover eksaited tu kadang-kadang. Hmm aku paham kau tengah marah aku sekarang. Kau rasa rimas dengan aku. Tapi aku macam tak boleh kalau tak baik dengan kau. Hmm. Jangan la macam ni. Aku suka cerita kat kau. Hmm, aku eksaited sangat bila dapat cite kat kau. Hmm. Mesti kau rimas dan bosan dengan aku. Hmm, aku tak tahu nak buat apa lagi dah. Aku sekarang berdiam diri dan sedih jela. Aku mampu mengalah je. Aku paham. Aku nothing. Aku takde yang perempuan lain ada. Allahhu. Aku minta maaf sangat-sangat. 

we crave feelings we've never felt and bodies we've never touched and love we've never had and that's why life can be so damn depressing.

standard hidup aku kalau aku bahagia sikit mesti endup macam ni, ni ke memang aku patut rasa.when im happy with you To be at this phase is not easy. Im not that type of that girl act. when im with you I can be this brave and falling for you was something I never planned. :( Ni memang standard piawaian yang aku kena alami ke? Sedihnya hidup aku...

CRUSH --> FRIENDZONED --> BAE --> MAHOMIES
The phase that I had to face to make you stay. Please stay, I really hope and hope u undrstand why and why. :( Never let you go. Please stayyyyy........................  T.T

note : Once i have made a decision, it wont be the same as the first time im falling in him. No matter how bad he is. 

Cause selfie with you is one of my wishlist.

Assalamualaikum and hi!...

From the title of this entry, you already know what's the main point is. Heheheee.

I donno y, i feel glad for a few weeks, my life becomes better. Ha. Even there are piles of assignments have to submit. Hahaaa. Last night, I met him. He's so cute, no? Hahaa, First like, I felt akward. Padahal, masa oncall tak cukup-cukup nak cakap. Hahahaaa. Aww, so cute, how late was him last night meyh, and he didnt have credit, lol. whatssapp only, what if i not opened my whatssapp, how can we bump to each other. Luckily I opened my whatssapp. haihh. I just stood alone and read some magazines in Popular. Hahaa, luckily you found me, cause i stared at you then you saw me. Hahaa, Pretending I was not see you was a weird thing I ever did. Hhaahaaa. When I started to blushing and I walked fast. The most cute thinggy was when we took selfie at IG, Mueheheee. Rasa nak bluetooth je gambar tu ke hp aku tauuu. Hahahaha, comel sangat.  Heheee. Spend an hour with you, played the games at arcade. At last, lepak in front of KM and we shared the stories. I really hope we can meet again after this. I want to shoot at photobox. Lol. But I dunno, where it is actually. 

SAMA TINGGI KE MACAM MANA NI?

To that guy, don be " kejap-kejap awek kau, kejap-kejap emma maembong, last-last kau cari aku jugak ". Kau dah ada gf, why you so bother, ? And sometimes, I think, you are not really love your gf, cause if you love her, how could you feel lost, when I stopped crush on you? And I think, all your updates in Insta, are fake at all. Maybe I feel jealous with your relationship, maybe. But, I think, I don want to be with that kind of a boy. If you're a celebrity it's ok you want to be like that. Budget. nyampah.

To afiq my bae/ my smoker, I hope you're just like a green tea or maybe ice peach tea or maybe anything that relates to you which makes you happy. I hope you see my face in every passing car, in every dua, and hear my voice in your favourite songs and you realise I was one all along. 

Yang penting, aku sudah katakan sebuah perasaan yang tumbuh di hatiku, tertanam yang kumulai mungkin dari sebuah kisah persahabatan. Iya atau tidak jawapanmu, ku serahkan semua ku serahkan semua ikutla kata hatimu. Ku takkan memaksa. Namun ku sungguh sangat mencintaimu.