Tuesday 29 April 2014

Yeay Me XD





Assalamualaikum, tengok part II tak sambung-sambung lagi, In Sya Allah malam ni. Esok kerja shift full. Duit duitt. 

Hi semua. Nak cite pengalaman amik driving test. Hmm macam-macam aku lalui. Ya Allah masatu aku nak putus asa pun ada. Masa amik test computer pun dah lambat. Bulan 1 baru nak amik. Mujur lulus amik sekali je. Pastu bulan 2 start pegi kelas memandu. Masa mula-mula asyik kena marah, sebab tak pandai langsung bawa kereta. Hmm. Lepastu, 26 Mac dah kena amik test jpj, walhal masatu aku tak ok langsung. Memang teruk sangat. Aku cancel amik 26 Mac. 2 minggu jugak, tak buat apa-apa. Sebab dah fed up. Pastu dah ada semangat sikit masa 16 April amik jpj test. Ni dah tak cancel dah. Ni betul-betul amik test. Bila dah semangat nak amik. Sebab masa belajar, jalan raya dah ok, litar pun ok. Satgi masa jpj test, fail 3 penjuru. Macam tak geram. Bila orang dah balik semangat ni, failed pulak. Sedih. Masa test jalan raya, kena marah je dengan pegawai perempuan tu. Aku diamkan je. Yang penting aku takkan buat salah kat jalan raya pulak. Alhamdullilah jalan raya ok. Tapi aku sendiri tak tengok borang aku, sebab awal-awal habis jalan raya dah kena halau. Dia cakap apa lagi keluar ah. Nak buat apa lama lama. Eh dia ni, aku tunggu borang aku, satgi uncle cina tu yang amikkan borang. Ish. Geram je. Uncle tu cakap jalan raya lulus, nanti buat litar lagi. Huhu. 

Pastu ni amik kali kedua ni, asyik tak ok je lagilagi kat 3 penjuru. Hmm, tak masuk la, terdepan sangatla. Aku dah mula down, tapi mak hari-hari bagi semangat kat aku. Mom is the best supporter ever. Ayah pun tak marah sebab failed, ayah cakap amik kali kedua. Aku suruh mak doakan aku hari-hari. Sehari sebelum test, ada kelas kan, cikgu yang ajar mula-mula sekali tu ajar aku balik. Even aku takut jugak dia marah. Tapi dia tak marah sangat ah, dia ajar cara betul tiga penjuru. Pagi tadi pun dia suruh aku try lagi. Hahaha. Ok la. Nampak Naaima tapi dia tak sama dengan aku tadi, tak dapat borak sangat. Masa sementara nak pergi test tu, hmm aku sentap dengan ayat seorang akak ni. 

"Kita kenalah lulus, jangan senasib dengan dia."

Pergh sentapnya, bukan aku sorang je ulangan ramai lagi. Hmm. Aku diam je. Aku sedar ah, aku tak hebat, nak test sekali dah pass. Hmm. Tak tau ah sekarang akak ni tengah tunggu giliran dia. Pastu masa tengah makan kat kantin. Tiba-tiba uncle tu panggil yang ulangan dah boleh test. Gulp. Gugur jantung. Dah la no 2. Pergh. Takut kutt. Hmm. Masa dalam kereta tu, doa tak putus-putus. Semua ok. Alhamdullilah lulus dah. Sampai sini je testnya. Tak kena buat lagi. Bersyukur sangat. Tapi tadi Mak baru beritahu cikgu yang ajar aku tu cakap aku sebearnya tak lancar lagi bawak kereta, tapi mak tak bitau sebab takut aku down lagi. Tapi tak lancar, still Allah makbulkan doa Mak dgn aku. Bersyukur gila. Cikgu yang ajar aku mula-mula pegang stereng, kawal kereta jangan bagi mati enjin, cikgu tu jugak yang tolong aku masa last pagi tadi. Terima kasih sangat-sangat. Mujur dia ajar cara sebenar 3 penjuru. Alhamdullilah. Lulus.

note : Saat paling gembira apabila Allah memakbulkan doa kita, dan kita dapat merasai nikmat-Nya. Kita rasa macam Allah masih nak dengar permintaan kita dan sayang kita lagi walaupun kita buat salah dengan Dia. Syukur.


Saturday 26 April 2014

Tak Nak Jadi Loser

Assalamualaikum

Hoi hoi yang diluar sana, maaf sebab tak sambung2 part II tu kan? yang tengah baca tu. Tengok tajuk pun dah tahu sape yang loser. Akulah si penaip blog Dunia Ini Sederhana Kecil. Blerghh. Tak best tau jadi loser. Asyik rasa merendah diri je macam aku. Kayy sebenarnya aku nak cakap. Aku tak loser dan aku tak mau loser tu. Benda tak baik kayy. Please la. Aku dah bosan rasa loser. 

Can I smile like this after all the tests from Allah? even it seems small, but it's hurt me so much. Can I pass the test? or I will cry a whole day, weeks and maybe make me don't want to try it all over again next time.

Aku pelik lah orang lain tu amik JPJ sekali je dah lulus tau. Kawan kawan semua dah lulus. Aku nak masuk dua kali. Dan kali kedua punya latihan pun still tak ok lagi. Huhu. Kau faham tak erti putus asa? Dan itu aku. Putus asa dah malas nak ambik lagi lepasni. Bazir bazir ah. Lantak ah. Nak cakap aku apa. Aku dah MALAS. Aku kesian kat orang sekeliling aku yang selalu bantu aku especially mak. Hari-hari bagi semnagat kata aku boleh. Dan orang sekeliling aku yg kadang tak kenal pun jadi kenal sebab tolong aku untuk 3 penjuru tu. Pehal bengap sangat aku ni. Padahal kimia addmath bio tu lagi susah tapi aku tak pernah nangis sebab diorang. Dan hanya memandu dah boleh buat aku nangis hampir setiap masa tak nampak tapi dalam hati. Guess what. aku rasa aku failed in driving. Aku tak tau kenapa sampai JPJ test aku takut, aku gabra, aku kecut. Semua ah yg seerti. Mesti dosa bertimbun timbun sekarang sebab tu Allah tanak mudahkan aku belajar. Plus aku merungut nak lulus nak lulus. Allah dah naik menyampah nak makbulkan doa aku. Tapi please la Ya Allah aku nak lulus bahagian litar ni je. Esok last belajar. Hari Rabu dah test.

Inilah apa yang aku rasa kalau kegagalan selalu menemui aku. Apa perasaan kau bila jalan kau start-start dah berliku-liku dan bila kau dah nak berjaya kau gagal. Apa yang kau rasa. Orang kata susah nak dapat, senang berjaya. Aku terbalik, susah nak dapat dan susah nak berjaya. Takkan sampai 4 kali amik test baru nak lulus kot. Aku taknak ah macam tu. Aku dah penat. Bukan tak pernah rasa macam ni tapi tak tau kenapa driving class je ni tak ok tu tak ok. Mungkin aku takde talent dlm bab2 driving kot, setakat bawak tu aku pass ah, sampai kat 3 penjuru. macm orang bodoh. Hari-hari aku harap aku ok dalam test nanti, tapi belajar balik, dah tak ok, slek sana sini esp, 3 penjuru.

Ya Allah kau dengar la permintaan aku even kau dah tanak dengar tapi aku mintak kau dengar dan makbulkan. Aku nak lulus kali kedua. Aku tanak sedih everytime. Aku tau aku banyak buat dosa, dan hamba yg tak reti nak bersyukur, tapi ya Allah aku mintak Kau luluskan JPJ test rabu ni. Ni keperluan bukan kemahuan aku. Sebab lesen penting dalam family aku. Aku tak mau jadi hamba-Mu yang tak bersyukur.

Penulis yang banyak mengeluh dan tak reti bersyukur

Fatehah Jamil

note : terkadang bermula dengan liku-liku susah payah, belum tentu akhirnya kita berjaya dan terkadang kegagalan tu boleh buat manusia tidak pandai bersyukur. Tuhan kuatkan aku, lindungi aku dari putus asa. Ampunkan khilaf dan salah selama ni ya Rabb.LULUSKAN AKU, BERIKAN SUATU KEAJAIBAN HARI RABU NI KEPADA AKU. Jauhkan kegagalan tu dalam diriku nanti.

Tuesday 22 April 2014

Janganlah Macam Ni


Assalamualaikum. Hi. Ini hanya entri. Thats a fact.





Aku jealous tau orang yang dah ada serious relationship ni. Serious jealous sangat. But bila aku nak cakap benda cenggini semua orang cakap tunggu jodoh. Bukan aku tak percaya jodoh. Aku percaya sangat. Tapi kan aku ni remaja biasa mesti kat hati kadang-kadang terdetik nak ada boyfriend. Tipu ah takde. Aku sendiri tak faham dengan aku. Asal ada orang yang nak masuk line je mesti tak jadi. Tak tau ah kenapa. Aku ni bila dah kenal skema naif sangat ke. Hmm, selagi aku takde beloved one selain family, selagi tu aku tak boleh lupakan dia. Aku tak suka macamtu, aku tanak tunggu dia lagi sebab aku rasa aku dah penat. Aku nak terima orang yang suka aku seadanya bukan aku suka kat orang tu. Orang lain boleh la cakap tunggu jodoh sebab hidup kau tak lonely macam aku. Takde boyfriend tapi still ada orang nak tanya khabar, still ada orang suka. But aku bukannya budak perempuan yang ada kawan lelaki. Tak percaya suka hati. Tapi aku memang takde kawan lelaki. Bukan desperate ke apa, cuma nak rasa disayangi oleh orang selain family dan kawan. Salah ke kalau aku nak rasa disayangi tu. Teringin jugak nak ada boyfriend sebelum ada suami. Aku nak ada orang care pasal aku selain family tau. 

Sekarang ni pun aku tengah sedih. Sebabnya dia tak tegur aku pun walaupun dia sebenarnya online tau. Sedihnya. Tak tau la pasal semalam yang dia tanya-tanya. But aku ada cakap kot aku terima seadanya. Takkan marah pulak. Sesungguhnya, aku mungkin tak layak nak ada boyfriend kat dunia kot. Sebab tu, asal ada orang dah guna pick up line till then tak jadi, tak tegur dah. Hmm. Losernya aku rasa sekarang. Baru aku teringat entry sebelum ni tak habis lagi part II dah cite sedih keluar. Harap esok dia text aku. :( berharap sangat.


note : aku nak hari hari ada orang text tanya banyak-banyak macam dulu lagi.If I lose hope today Ya Rabb, Im really sorry and reminds me that your plans are better than my dreams.

Monday 21 April 2014

First Time Travelling (THROWBACK) Part I



Hi ebelibadi. Assalamualaikum. Im so bored, so I make this entry. I just wanna share my first time traveled. It was 3 or 4 years ago when I was fifteen * cause when you're fifiteen and somebody tells you that they love you and you're gonna believe it. Hahaha. Yes when I was fifteen we started our love story until now, maybe. Im waiting for you.

When I was fourteen, I joined a new club at my school, BCCC. That club offered us as the club members to connect with other countries students. That time this club was just started in Malaysia. My school is the first school that accept this organisation as a club. At first, I felt bored join this club but my English teacher forced us to join. We were just like masterpiece. I started to love this club when we're skyping with UK's students. In 2011, my friends and I decided to continue joining this club. My club teacher announced a new activity in this club, Student Exchange Programme. But my teacher said that exchange program couldn't be too long because she worried about the cost. So, teacher decided this program would be held for about 10 days only. I told my parents about this, I don't know why my parents didn't quarrel about it. They seems agreed. I felt afraid, cause I never go this far without parents. My friends too, their parents agreed about it.  My school collaborated with SMPN2 from Bandung to organize an Student Exchange Programme under BCCC.

The journey was began from Kluang to LCCT. It took 4 hours to arrived LCCT. No memories in STK school bus. Hahaha. Arrived LCCT, performed prayers first and did jama' qasar. Then, teacher gave us our flight ticket, guess what. The flight departured on 7.00 p.m, and we still have 6 hours to wait. Gah gah gah. Pffttttt. Just wait.


So let us study for PMR first. Iman the bajet one. Hahaha.

 





lets filled the boarding pass first in plane.


Idid, me and Migha. Where's my Iman? haha LOL.


In 2 hours flight, I enjoyed watching the handsome stewards and pretty stewardess in all their formality, walked up and down serving and smiling all the time. When about arrived Indonesia, I enjoyed looking out of the small window from Idid's seat the beautiful sky and had many various colour of lights from up. As you all know,  Jawa Barat has "penduduk yang padat". Maybe that various light were coming from the houses and buildings.     But what I hated is my blocked ear. I didn't expect too much in this journey even when we arrived Bandara Husein Sastranegara Airport Bandung (BDO).

Our foster family already waited for us. Pity on them but pity on me first. I expected, teachers would introduce first our foster family, but they didn't. Never been there and never know my foster family, with knowing nothing, I just followed my foster family. They brought me to Nasi Padang Restaurant.



Nasi Padang and all the dishes. I just took its sambal ijo and ayam goreng.

Along the way to their house, I felt asleep already. Too tired and exhausted. They understood me. Arrived the house about 11.00 p.m Malaysia's time. Prepared the stuffs for school next morning.

Next day, Friday, I woke up early in the morning, 0400 WB. Took a breakfast as fast as I could, cause I was afraid Athiya (my partner) would be late to school. Then, Ayah sent me to school for the first day. Sesampai je kat sekolah tu. See this

They were busy for the opening ceremony to welcome us.

In the hall of SMPN2.

Only me wore school uniform, while they wore club tshirt. Sadlife.

OSIS introduced us their school by taking us around the school. SMPN2 is a small school. It doesn't have a field. SMP is like form 1 to form 3 students. They will take an important exam when they are in 9th grade. What I respect about them are they are allowed to bring phone and laptop, but they do not use it while in P&P. They are also very talented in many ways. Their school accentuate them not only academic but kokurikulum too. Even their kokurikulum doesn't too important like at Malaysia. During break, they will play around. I could see some students played badminton and basketball. Some of them played musical instruments like Angklung, guitar at corridor. Some of them practiced dancing. Me so excited watched this new environment that I can't see at Malaysia. The small school didn't stop them for being active.

 

Today was Friday, so P&P finished early to allow Muslim students perform Solat Jumaat. At that time, the mosque in SMPN2 was under construction, but we were allowed to use it. Guess what, the place where we had to take wudu' didn't have wall. We just followed the students. Their ways in taking wudu' had a little bit different from what we used to. Then, they used various colours of telekung. Really nice. After done Jumaat prayer, we walked to the mall near the school. There, I bought XL simcard and then, I called my mom. After that, Athiyah and I went to Sensei Kenta Nakashima's house. As we arrived there, Sensei invited us to enter his house. He made sushi for us. Suddenly, there was a bad new. There was Tsunami at Japan. Sensei worried because he has to go back to Japan as today was his last day at Bandung and last day to him taught BJ in SMPN2. He could speak bahasa fluently.





Sensei Kenta Nakashima :3


We went home about 6.00p.m by Angkutan Kota. Today, first time I took Angkutan Kota. This day was the first day I was here so I wanna share something about the situation here. As early 6.30 am here the sun  was already rise. When the sun was down at about 6.00pm, the temperature drops. Due to my observation for the first day here, Bandung was relatively cooler. The average temperature was about 22.6. Cool isn't?

Next day, Saturday, many activities this day. Woke up early get ready for this brand new day. Semangat. Athiyah and I took about 3 angkutan kota to go to SMPN2. I don't know whether factor of distance or macet along the road here. And the most important is The driver of Angkot is cute enough to be a celebrity. SERIOUS TALK.

 


First destination for today is Museum Konferensi Asia Afrika. This is historical place at Bandung. Let just watch the pictures below. Nothing to here. Bandung Conference.


   

My teacher said, when visiting Bandung, by chance we passed the Geology Museum. This museum is big enough and has a big yard outside. We didn't have to pay any single cent for entrance fee. It's free. This museum has two floors with art deco's style. In this museum, we could find various type of rocks, the mineral, fossils and several artifacts from several parts of Indonesia. We could find seats and clean toilets  with good maintenance here even did not charge any cents.

 


Then, we took lunch at Chinese Restaurant. We celebrated Kak Farhana's Birthday too. All of the food provided were too delicious as Chinese culinary.




Next destination we dropped by at Saung Angklung Udjo. Here we could watch  the presentation of art  traditional puppet show, traditional dances, the choir of Angklung music played by hundreds of students at Saung Angklung Udjo Academic. Toilet at Saung Angklung Udjo is unique. Its surau too unique but I doesn't have the picture. I just remember Kang Bayu because he is so cute. :3

  


Even he close his eyes, he's still cute. :3


Our next destination was Taman Hutan Raya Ir H Djuanda in area of Dago. something like that. The scenery here suitable to make film like Twilight cause there is Pine forest. There are also the caves (Jepang and Belanda). Here we welcomed by shady big tress. This is a scenic part of Bandung.
 


Gua Jepamg much smaller than Gua Belanda. Actually It's more like tunnel not cave.


After visited Guo Jepang/Belanda, we went to Factory Outlets. Seriously, there are many Factory Outlets at Bandung, We went to Cihampelas Street. Many of the stores along Cihampelas Road are named after superhero or Hollywood action characters like Superman, Batman, Hulk and Spiderman. Along with the names, the stores have large models of the superheros attached at the front of the stores. Really awesome and beautiful. So we had a few hours here to shop.

 


Today, we arrived at SMPN2 at 7.00 pm because serious traffic jammed. Then, my partner and I took taxi to back home. Really tired and exhausted but learnt many new things for today. For dinner, I took sate padang. A little bit different from sate here because the sate "tak manis" and "tak cicah dengan kuah kacang".  Kayy that's all.

Sunday. We had family event at Bale Pare, Kota Baru Parahanyangan. Guess what, after about 4 days here, teacher introduced foster families. Huh. ==" Many activities for today. We watched 4D's film. After finished this event, we went to
 


Then, we went to Puspa Iptek. Then, we took a meals at one of the biggest Bakso Restaurant. Then, we went to Grandma's house. Today, we back home early. Yeay! This was the scenery along the way .The paddy fields.


 


TO BE CONTINUED......
my english is bad and I know