Monday 16 November 2015

Kelas Malam Isnin








Hohohoo. Kelas malam aku ialah kelas mekanik. Aku kekadang suka dengar dr membebel. Tah kenapa. Walaupun kelas dia suka keluar perkataan shit, fuck, stupid semua, Tapi entah. Dr kata kalau apa kita berangan atau apa please la tulis kat dalam buku ke pe. Aku rasa aku patut post kat blog aku memandangkan aku tade journal/diary pe semua. Huhuhuhu. Tau dak setiap kelas mekanik, aku rasa macam mencari-cari walhal aku tau dia tade kat sini. Betapa aku rindu saat saat sama. Bilala kita nak ditakdirkan bertemu. Hurm. Banyak sangat aku nak luah. Banyak sangat. Plus setiap kelas aku nampak seseorang yang macam kau. Lagilah aku rasa jauhnya kita. Physically nya sama. weh. Tapii aku tak pernah pulak berborak ke pe. Maklumla, aku pemalu dan aku rasa takde kepentingan aku nak borak dengan dia. Yang aku nak borak sekarang adalah dengan kau. Sampai bila nak macam ni. Aku tunggu kau. I have to be strong to go through this. 

Sunday 15 November 2015

Fuhh.. Fuhh *tiuphabuk..

Assalamualaikum my lovely dovey blog..


Lama tak bebel kat sini.

Bukan tade idea tapi busy sangat. For today, i had submit 2 tasks/assignments. Sedih. I know this wont finish and no end. Goodbye the free life. Im now a bachelor students. Katanya, physicist in the making. Katanya lah. I also wont delete the past entries. Because its about my life. I let it be the memories. Oh. Pardon me, I forget to post the entry about my backpacking trip 2015. Hiks. Ha nampak tak busynya tu. Lenkali, aku post pasal tu. Huhuhuhuhuhu.

 

I dont know what my feeling. Its seem like mixing feelings. Sometimes, I feel sad, too sad. I just cant stop thinking. Sorry. Or should I just give up? Hmm. I'm sorry. I'm kinda a needy girl, sometimes even forced you to make it out. I know u're super duper double busier than me, but whyla aku pretended buat tak paham. I'm not good at this. I'm not good in saying goodbye. Please, I know I wronged, but forgive me. I couldn't be strong. If I've got chances to fix this, I will. All I ever wanted was the truth from you. Don't kept silence. Just don't. I'm begging to you. Lay awake I'm hoping everything will be okay. I miss you truth be told. Im sorry (in infinity). I miss everything bout you. All I want is you. T.T. 

P/S : If I showed you my flaws, If I couldn't be strong, would you still love me the same?