Tuesday 29 July 2014

YOU!




Every year, my raya mood will turn to be hambar. It was like a very common day. Im sad Ramadan left us. Hmm. Im just afraid if we cant meet again next year. How it all could be. Then, next Ramadhan will full of throwbacks, either it worse or best memories. Ramadan this year was full of throwbacks. I bet next year I will miss all this. 

Im just on dilemma in making decision to stay or just move on. Long sigh. I know u lost your phone. I know u're trying very hard to not lose contact. But is it me to be the first step again? And what you do? Dump me again after that right? Sometime I feel to stay but sometime I feel Im just wasting my time. My bae, my smoker, could you stop torturing me, THE PERSON WHO LOVE/LIKE/ADORE/CRUSH ON YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. I don know what to do again. and again, you did the same mistakes. I asked you, I've waited the answers for many days and then I saw your post updated. But you don't reply my answer yet. If you are in my place what you feel? What you think? In my mind now, you're just wait someone call you, pretend don't know everything. Ea Bodohnya aku suka kau.  Maybe I don't know what really happened. I think this eid is hurt me because of you. I'm training myself to be HEARTLESS. Cant you feel the pain that u placed in my heart? Im asking youuuuu, please answer. Is it so hard. First thing I want you to know is, Iftar with u is one of my wishlist. But what your answer, many statement u gave to me. "next time jelah, masa tak mengizinkan. then u said, I said it random so u didn't notice that. What the ==" Then, I asked you what? Beraya kat mana? Takkan tu tak reti reply jugak? You make me sad this Syawal. T.T


I KNOW YOU HATE ME MUCH BECAUSE IM JUST DISTURBANCE OF YOUR LIFE, IM NOT A PRETTY GIRL, NOT A GORGEOUS PEOPLE,  IM NOBODY TO YOU, I REALIZE THAT. YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME THINK IM JUST AN UGLY GIRL WHO CHASING A PRINCE CHARMING.


"You love to hate me when I'm chasing youAnd I hate to say this but I'm stuck on loving youSo I pretend that I don't careI'll stand you up to keep you hereI'll make you hate me just enough to make you want meI'll misbehave if it turns you onNo Mr. Right if you want Mr. WrongI'll tell you liesIf you don't like the truth"

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