Cause selfie with you is one of my wishlist.

Assalamualaikum and hi!...

From the title of this entry, you already know what's the main point is. Heheheee.

I donno y, i feel glad for a few weeks, my life becomes better. Ha. Even there are piles of assignments have to submit. Hahaaa. Last night, I met him. He's so cute, no? Hahaa, First like, I felt akward. Padahal, masa oncall tak cukup-cukup nak cakap. Hahahaaa. Aww, so cute, how late was him last night meyh, and he didnt have credit, lol. whatssapp only, what if i not opened my whatssapp, how can we bump to each other. Luckily I opened my whatssapp. haihh. I just stood alone and read some magazines in Popular. Hahaa, luckily you found me, cause i stared at you then you saw me. Hahaa, Pretending I was not see you was a weird thing I ever did. Hhaahaaa. When I started to blushing and I walked fast. The most cute thinggy was when we took selfie at IG, Mueheheee. Rasa nak bluetooth je gambar tu ke hp aku tauuu. Hahahaha, comel sangat.  Heheee. Spend an hour with you, played the games at arcade. At last, lepak in front of KM and we shared the stories. I really hope we can meet again after this. I want to shoot at photobox. Lol. But I dunno, where it is actually. 

SAMA TINGGI KE MACAM MANA NI?

To that guy, don be " kejap-kejap awek kau, kejap-kejap emma maembong, last-last kau cari aku jugak ". Kau dah ada gf, why you so bother, ? And sometimes, I think, you are not really love your gf, cause if you love her, how could you feel lost, when I stopped crush on you? And I think, all your updates in Insta, are fake at all. Maybe I feel jealous with your relationship, maybe. But, I think, I don want to be with that kind of a boy. If you're a celebrity it's ok you want to be like that. Budget. nyampah.

To afiq my bae/ my smoker, I hope you're just like a green tea or maybe ice peach tea or maybe anything that relates to you which makes you happy. I hope you see my face in every passing car, in every dua, and hear my voice in your favourite songs and you realise I was one all along. 

Yang penting, aku sudah katakan sebuah perasaan yang tumbuh di hatiku, tertanam yang kumulai mungkin dari sebuah kisah persahabatan. Iya atau tidak jawapanmu, ku serahkan semua ku serahkan semua ikutla kata hatimu. Ku takkan memaksa. Namun ku sungguh sangat mencintaimu.

YOU!

Every year, my raya mood will turn to be hambar. It was like a very common day. Im sad Ramadan left us. Hmm. Im just afraid if we cant meet again next year. How it all could be. Then, next Ramadhan will full of throwbacks, either it worse or best memories. Ramadan this year was full of throwbacks. I bet next year I will miss all this. 

Im just on dilemma in making decision to stay or just move on. Long sigh. I know u lost your phone. I know u're trying very hard to not lose contact. But is it me to be the first step again? And what you do? Dump me again after that right? Sometime I feel to stay but sometime I feel Im just wasting my time. My bae, my smoker, could you stop torturing me, THE PERSON WHO LOVE/LIKE/ADORE/CRUSH ON YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. I don know what to do again. and again, you did the same mistakes. I asked you, I've waited the answers for many days and then I saw your post updated. But you don't reply my answer yet. If you are in my place what you feel? What you think? In my mind now, you're just wait someone call you, pretend don't know everything. Ea Bodohnya aku suka kau.  Maybe I don't know what really happened. I think this eid is hurt me because of you. I'm training myself to be HEARTLESS. Cant you feel the pain that u placed in my heart? Im asking youuuuu, please answer. Is it so hard. First thing I want you to know is, Iftar with u is one of my wishlist. But what your answer, many statement u gave to me. "next time jelah, masa tak mengizinkan. then u said, I said it random so u didn't notice that. What the ==" Then, I asked you what? Beraya kat mana? Takkan tu tak reti reply jugak? You make me sad this Syawal. T.T


I KNOW YOU HATE ME MUCH BECAUSE IM JUST DISTURBANCE OF YOUR LIFE, IM NOT A PRETTY GIRL, NOT A GORGEOUS PEOPLE,  IM NOBODY TO YOU, I REALIZE THAT. YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME THINK IM JUST AN UGLY GIRL WHO CHASING A PRINCE CHARMING.

"You love to hate me when I'm chasing youAnd I hate to say this but I'm stuck on loving youSo I pretend that I don't careI'll stand you up to keep you hereI'll make you hate me just enough to make you want meI'll misbehave if it turns you onNo Mr. Right if you want Mr. WrongI'll tell you liesIf you don't like the truth"

I Want It That Way

Assalamualaikum. Salam Ramadhan uolls.
I never care whether the answer is not or yes or just maybe. But you really hurt me for the 3467745677912345675979 times. I never thought this Ramadan I will know you as someone that I used to know. WHY DON'T YOU JUST APPRECIATED SOMEONE THAT REALLY LIKE YOU? I know you can list as much as you want the reason why you don't  want to appreciate someone that really accept you for who you are. But I know the primary reason why. Because I'm not pretty at all compared to other girls that chased you outside there. It's a legit reason and no one can deny it. You preferred to choose them rather than me because they are pretty, perfect, fabulous, gorgeous and awesome. I know, i'm not that type of typical girl. Sometimes I just thought why must I know you, the end will be like this, painful inside. I never think about this before. Why? Why? Allah it's so hurt. I never asked for this to happen to me. If I know this will be happened I never want to know him at all. Seriously. This is one of the toughest test of qadr. Oh Allah ease my pain and help me content with Your Qard. I have to believe the destiny that has been written for me. So just go on finding the perfect one, i hope u can meet her. The beautiful, thin, pretty, gorgeous and fabulous girl. I know you have numbers of admire to choose that's why you put on the out of list because of im not pretty as other girl. IT'S OKAY. I'M FINE WITH THAT KIND OF DISCRIMINATION.