Life.

Assalaumalaikum, and good morning everyoneee. I recently in my room at KMM. Lol, this week was so busy and everyone here said the same thing to. Lol. Many lab reports to submit next week. Every week 3 lab reports. Everyday eight hours classes. I miss MPBB week seriously. I have no choice to choose, so if I will or not, I have to stay here for another 10 months. Maybe next week I will be on different class if my request to switch module is approved.

Actually before that, I already cried all over because there's someone that broke my heart again. Y dont he just stay as a friend, y don't he try to act normally like before and the important is y don't he say sorry. Im waiting for u everyday every night. Then, u can just say, "aku taknak bagi harapan kat sapa2, pliss paham". That's mean u wanna left me like what my past A! left me right. Maybe u donno what happens to me before and how i struggled to deal with that. Its hard. A! left me without words. When im with u im just hoping after a long time i didn't fall in love after A!, I will try to fall in love again with someone that ordinary and im just close my eyes when I fall in love with you because IM IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH ALL YOUR LITTLE THINGS. You are perfect to me. I tried my best to be the one who always care about you even Im busy right here. I will add the time to accompany you. Ive done my part, y not u just accept me as who I am. Try to talk again, try to make a conversation again. Don't leave me. I can't let you go. I dont want the same thing happen again in my entire life. Please stay but Im not gonna try to start a conversation anymore and I will be left and dump in the middle of it. Enough you just say sorry, I wait for that word if you do, I will forget  everything u've done that hurt me so much. Easy right but y u're such a bodoh guy that never know the most powerful word is sorry.

note : And you know that you can take all of me. I swear I will be better than before. No I can't let you go. I hope you know you never left my head and if I ever let you down I'm sorry.

Be Heartless :(

Assalamualaikum.

Hi! Today, I have no mood.

It's okay if I had to start the conversation, but I hate of being the person who ended the conversation. Nampak macam aku yang beriya mahukan kau. Lol. At least if u want to end up the conversation jangan lah blah macam tu.  Said something, "okayla nak tidur, okayla awak saya bosan dengan awak". And paling perit bila, aku posts apa-apa and kau like. Perghh. Nampak tak kau online but kau memang saja nak tak nak reply. Last ayat aku bukan ok ok atau hmm, aku tanya kau kot, aku soal kau kot. 

You have to remember this "if I open up to you, then u're absolutely special to me".  Can I be a heartless girl? I hate this feeling, the feeling when i'm trying to forget A! and I open up to you and suddenly u also broke my heart. Dump me as what u want. Maybe you don't know how hard I am to fall in love again and to open my heart for someone else. It's take time and slowly I could forget A! when you entered my entire life. I felt glad you come, you've being so special. Tapi kau taktau semua tu. Asyik aku yang mulakan semua benda. Aku sedih. Aku perit.

I told Awin about this and awin replied. "If there's a someone make you feeling down, then, wake up because of ALLAH because He is the best Protector, He is our Creator, He is our Sustainer and the one who has Power over all.
Then, I don't know why I told A! about this. Then he replied, someday we will meet, and that time tell me everything and whatever that make you feel sad, trust me.
Fyqa send me this, one day he will regret of treating the girl who done everything and fight for him.

note : never make somebody your everything, when they're gone, you've got nothing.

Build New Friendship :)

Assalamualaikum, hi. Post yang ketiga untuk harini. Hamek kau. Lama tak mengadu nasib menaip. Hahaha.

Kita nak cakap kita seronok kerja part time haritu. Huhuhuu. Rindu sangat. Bila la dapat together-gether lagi macam 13 hari masatu. Lepak, borak makan, lipat baju, lipat seluar, layan customers yang mengada-ngada. Dah badan tu besar, nak cari seluar kat kaunter aku. Pastu bila dah takde marah-marah. Aku last-last kena maki dengan Super aku. Geram pulak kita. But, semua tu aku dapat atasi dengan ada kawan-kawan. Cewahh ayat. Haha. Even yang sebaya hanya aku berlima je yang lain semua abang long Fadhil dan akak yong. Lol. Tapi seriously, diorang sporting. Best giler. Hmmm. Bukan nak cakap kerja kat Parkson dulu tak best, best sebab dapat promoter yang sporting yang suka layan perangai aku yang gila-gila macam Ah Geok dan super yang sporting. Huhu super aku dulu suka seludup makanan pastu bagi aku suruh makan. Kawan kawan pun okay. Tapi bila kat TS ni aku rasa circle of friendship aku becomes wider la weyh. Sebab aku terpaksa kawan dengan akak and abang. Hahaha. Diorang dahla banyak ceghita. Setiap hari gossip, Kpop la. Hahaha. Lagi satu, kat TS, HR dia tak kisah, tak macam Maya, garang nak mampus. Tu je yang aku tak suka kat Parkson. Kat TS yang aku tak suka aku dapat promoter dan super yang tak okay. Huhhh. Dahla tak tolong aku, pastu bila jumpa dia marah aku dia cakap, sepanjang 13 hari awak buat apa. Aku paling tak suka orang pertikaikan apa yang aku dah buat, padahal dia takde kat situ sepanjang 12 hari. Nampak dia nak demand macam tu. Macam bangang. LOL.

Tapi friendship kiteorang semakin utuh. Hahaha. Ayat skema. Lol. Diorang semua abang2 akak2. Haha aku dengan geng aku je lapanbelas. Huhu. Aku panggil diorg pun kak. abang. Hahaha. Tapi ada sorang abang ni. Aku tak boleh nak panggil abg. Aku mesti panggil dia nama je. Hahahaaa. Kawan aku cakap aku menggatal senanya. Aku pun pelik tak bole sangat2 nak panggil abang. So kiteorang borak bahasakan diri dengan nama. Lol pelik gile tapi tula. Tak tau la kalau jumpa face to face lagi nanti. Hahaha. Mau tergelak guling- guling kat situ. Ada yang lapan belas tapi muka dah tua nampak sebaya je dgn abg2 long tu. Hahaha. Btw, aku harap kiteorang still keep in touch macam sekarang.

Tengok la, aku tetap yang paling pendek. Sedih

Geng gua. Hahaha. Awin Tasya Hao.